Friday, June 30, 2023
I'm Falling
Tuesday, June 27, 2023
People
Monday, June 26, 2023
Food, Glorious Food
Friday, June 23, 2023
The Memory Thing, Food and Not Sleeping Too Well (I guess) & AOB
The Memory Thing - my days are getting mixed up again. Why, just yesterday I asked the husband if I went to a cafe with the teen at half term. I couldn't remember at all. I think he may have been surprised I didn't remember too. Mainly as he pointed out to get to the cafe, I'd have had to drive. Oh yeah... I can't drive can I. He was there too. Whoops. There have been more of these happening of late.
Food - I am conscious that my eating has slowed down a lot. These days everyone has finished while I'm only half way through my food. I'm hoping the food aversion isn't coming back again because that was annoying. I finish most things, however am leaving food in the evenings as I get too full. But it feels like it's changing again.
Not Sleeping Too Well - this isn't new. I've always had problems sleeping. I'm even worse at the moment, getting by on a steady five or six hours every night. I miss the days when I'd wake up at 10am, it's more like 6 or 7 these days unless I can get back to sleep quickly. I've cut back my coffee to one a day and none in the afternoon to see if it helps too.
Any other business? Well, yes, actually. This is a new one that's got into my head more than it should. I saw a lady in her seventies (maybe) walking outside, enjoying the sunshine. I felt really sad inside - that might never be me. I want to be an old person enjoying the sunshine, except instead I'm having to limit my time in the sun thanks to burning quickly. For the first time since this whole treatment started I felt quite sad for myself. Not sad burst into tears sad, just sad that something I'd have taken for granted might not happen. But then again it could, such is the unpredictable nature of this annoying tumour.
Electric Shock - footnote - it's gone.
Dermatology appointment - I got cream, it's all good.
Tuesday, June 20, 2023
THEN
Memories....
So the world of weird has re/appeared these last two days.
In my head I'm staying indoors today because I'm due a delivery from Nespresso and Ocado are delivering our food too.
The reality is that I did a Nespresso order a week ago and Ocado are delivering tomorrow. So now I'm trying to work out why I've set today aside and I can't remember for the life of me.
Yesterday we went for Afternoon Tea at Langshott Manor which was nice and empty so we had space from other people. I was still stuffed after two sandwiches and two scones plus a mini lemon meringue tart, so brought the food home with me. Husband fared better only bringing home his mini carrot cake.
I've come to the realisation that lots of food and how I behave afterwards could have a weird side-effect. I get really tired (blood sugars? Even though I'm not diabetic) and then I need a nap and usually have one. It's a new thing, I'm listening to my body and getting on with whatever I need to.
I'm also wondering if rubbish sleep equals a rubbish memory. I'd take that over more cancer growth a billion times.
Friday, June 16, 2023
Electric Shock Revisited (2) (maybe?)
Sore Neck
Oof, it hurts. Trying to sit up without hurting my core. My upper shoulder is in pain but behaving. It's not agonising pain but it'...
-
Tonight is another night out at the theatre. I can't wait! Although I have a horrible feeling we're in similar seats to the last tim...
-
You find out all sorts. The teen and the husband both told me things from last October that they had forgotten. The teen, I've forgotten...
-
My head is so tired. There, I've said it. I think this is a hangover from our trip to York and everything that came with it - which was ...