In My Head

"The cells look very abnormal. These are the fastest growing tumours. They often come back after treatment and can spread to other parts of the brain and sometimes the spinal cord. You usually have treatment with radiotherapy and chemotherapy."

This is like a giant brick being carried above my head using a fishing rod, all day every day. Yeah, we're going to treat you but sadly it'll probably come back and you'll have to go through all this again. You're not allowed to forget about this. I can generally ignore it, but occasionally it bugs me - like now.

It feels like I'm moaning about something which nobody else truly understands - and to some extent that's true. But there are people around me who know about certain things. Husband has done almost all of my care.

Teen has helped as well. We're a good tight unit. But I can tell it's getting tiring for them both. I'm tired too. I've stopped sleeping again (3am last night). This whole EVERYTHING about EVERYTHING keeps going around my head.

My big, round, flaky head. The flakes are pretty big now, all over my scalp. So I'm looking into a hair oil I can use to help the flakiness disappear. That or I wear a hat all day (which is fine but could get hot)

Even my ears are flaky. It's really not a great look.